sad♡

everythg is so hurtful t me. ):

whts wrg? why you doing tis t me?

sorry i cant say out e answer cos idk.
since you feel tis way.. maybe you're right.

unfair-ness t you since e start.. sorry):

even a million sorry(s) also cant help it right?

i owe you so much.

you've made up your mind?..

since its wht you want..

tis e last time i draw you apple?..

maybe barh. be happy. (:

byebye.

i'll miss you.

♥

i knw my worth.

i wish i can understand.
i wish i can dunt care.
i wish i can dunnu anythg!
i wish i never did all those dumb thg in e past.
nw wht am i trying t do?
pretending im fine whn you're letting me dwn agn&agn.
maybe you dunt care. but its killing me.
i feel like im dying inside....

and they tell me,
i aint e same no more.

♡SUCKS.

OMG I JEALOUS.
why you liddat. why why why why why.
DUNT COME CLOSE. or watch your face.
fun? okie. i shall do e same t you.
_l_


wtf. perfect day. ruined tis way.
fuck yourself nd go t hell. -.-
today shld be happy wtf.
just nw so happy after sch went 883,
acc ronnie&edm go polyclinic take MC.
ronnie is e world most lucky boy.
polyclinic close. no more queue no.
dot. went fuchun CC watch ronnie eat kfc.
den walk somewhr smoke luhs.
ronnie fakefake>< he in e end smoke also.
den e boys walked me home.
on e way home talking talking abt dota.
vian gna learn dota too. she learn frm ronnie.
i learn frm edm, BATTLE.
we get ready go t war on e 2th. must win.
else xiasuay edm leis. dot dot.
take off shirt run ars. kns.
warzone nw warzone combat mood no bath 7 dayss.
grr. my mood vry lousy nw lar.
post agn if i happy. imma gna go bang a wall.-.-

IS I STUPID
IS I DUMB
IS I NO BRAIN
IS ME WHO LET YOU CLOSE.
OK SLAP MYSELF A MILLION TYM CANT UNDO E FACT.
i am so stupid.
i shld die.

♥used-to-be(s) favourite things.

baby,late nights,seeing your face in e morning,

warm arms wrapped around my waist so tight,

piggybacks,cooking tgt,brushing teeth tgt,

the way you smell,trying on all your clothes,

holding hands in crowded places,hugs

eating lots&lots of shaker fries tgt(yummy),

falling in love with each other over&over again,

promises,skipping sch for you,sweet kisses,

lying in bed listening to lovesongs with you,

baking for you,playing hide&seek with you,

putting my head on your chest at night,

putting my hands over your waist,

looking at you,sniffing at you,box you(=X)

doodling on your hands and body

the way you make me smile,wrestling in bed,

the way you say'dont cry la,dumb',

sweet cuddles,the way i make you smile,

sharing secrets,giving you my world,

taking care of you,sitting on you

telling you a million i love you(s),

sharing my world with you,smelling your fingers,

(smells like tobacco),hugging you to sleep,

taking pictures with you,tickling you,doting you,

sayang-ing you,making you happy,

smoking wit you,seeing you smile,

irritate you whn you slp...

all tis are used-to-be my favourite things.

today, i will put an end to all tis.

bye,memories.

i guess its impossible to forget,..

time heals.

nd i want to trust,

and i want to feel loved again.

can i? can i? can i?

多希望你是好人。。

ONLINE SHOPPING PLS~

i want!...♥

rainbowchecks bareback
(i gt smth similar but i like tis alot alot!)


disneycouture castle necklace

faux big-as-house diamond ring
(so bimbo can. :P)

barbie love ken tee~

snakeskin flats

drawstring tunic dress
(i want it in white!)

just now talking wit wr&edm.

we all no go out. ahahaha.

we talking abt weiting b'dae pressie.

den i show wr e drawstring tunic dress(above) say buy for weiting.

wr: eh tis one more like you wear one lei.

me: ya lur. bt wt cannot wear tis meh?

wr: later jc see her he run away!

haha.

asshole he owe me one fishball.

edm say he dunt talk to me his skin will peel. (:

hehehehehe.heheheheheheehe. ehheehehehe.

I LOST MY NOSESTUD! >:@

friday boredom/

after sch went 883 wit weihoon eat.
den went into lanshop,saw qinghao was wrking.
den went in sit nd play.
edm ronnie kok all came after awhile.
ronnie help ziyun pierce tongue,
ziyun gt no blood come out der sia. haa.
den after tat vry vry bored!!!!!
i decided to play comp. play no.18 and entered dota!
wtf. den i follow ronnie random random
but actually i wna choose my own hero!!
KNS they give me vry ugly PUDGE-.-
haha. in e end i gt repick lur. i repick one forget wht name,
ohya!!! death prophet krobeleus! so ugly her face-.-
so fun sia. walk ard walk ard. den i buy one gemstone so nice^^
den edm saw he jitao sien. ahhaha. cos tat gem no use one.
den vry sien. play a little CS. sienxzx lor.
den i went out smoke nd blew many many bubbles.
disturb ronnie slp awhile hahaha. he slp still can wink at me.=.=
sit at kpt wit dem den tell them a joke. (:
hahah. they like ah pek sia. so early start drinking liao.
den they drink i also drink lur-.- HAHA.
went home after tat. :D

im hungry now!!!!! ): ):
bye!
it cuts so deep,it hurt right down into my soul.

IM IN LOVE IN LOVE IN LOVE~~~

EM c2 is L♥VE!

♥
Oh baby
Baby, I stay in love with you

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you dont' know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds

And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Baby, I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now

Hey, what I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUV
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone
Now go I know

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

I stay in love
Love
Oh, I stay in love.

rawr :x

im blowing bubbles~ :D

eileen! lol see jiexiong behind-.-

yp tink i cant snap her. in e end.../

TADA!..

ytd mit xinwei,and his friend yuwen.

eh so dumb lar,i fell dwn near mac whn yuwen say oiii.-.-

SO PS ><

why i everytime gt 'accident' one.

den went watch them snook nd they sent me back.

stupid bird face. -.-

today went e fattybombom hse. ahaha. (:

FARKING FARNNYYY CAN.

he's asleep i sit on him.

he jitao scream one CB out-.-

scare tio edm. HAHAHAHA

i gt so fat anot sia. before tat still say me skeleton.

rawr! =X went dwn t buy thgs wit lynette.

left e two guy at home.

came back wit cigs,smoked nd all.

den lie dwn rest awhile jiu go home liao.

♠拜拜！

life sososososo mundane.

):

OI I HEADACHE LIKE GG DIE LIAO.
WTF. I FEVER FOR LIKE 3RD DAY CAN
I HAVENT SEE DOC
HAVENT GET BTR.
I STAY HOME TWO DAYS STRAIGHT.
HEAD SO PAIN HEAD SO PAIN
MY HEAD GG BURST BURST BURST
MY MIND GT MANY MANY THG INSIDE.
FUCK LA. UPSET ME AGN.
CB LAAAAAA. PLS PLS PLS MAKE ME FEEL BTR CAN
I WONDER IF I GT BRAIN DAMAGE SIA.
COS NO MORE FEVER BUT HEAD STILL SO PAIN,
IF I BRAIN DAMAGE ALL MY FRIEND SURE DIE.
HAVENT BRAIN DAMAGE I ALRDY SOT,
NW BRAIN DAMAGE SURE EVEN MORE SOT.
POOR FRIENDS. ):
ARGH. AND PLS LEIS, MAKE ME FEEL BTR CAN.
I WNA GO OUT. I WANT BREATH FRESH AIR.
AT HOME STARE CEILING IS NO FUN.
ME IS DYING LEIS. ):

nth felt worser thn tis.

sleepless ytd nite.
bad bad bad headache nd heartache
wna speak t you badlyyyyyyyyyyy.

peaakkkttuuurrreeesss!

yingping&me~ love tis pic!

oh myyy god. so sweeet can^^

ehehe.

BARBIE(C)

head scarf~ LOL

i gt long long long hair!!! and somemore is real der worzxzxzxzz! HAHA.
love my eileen also love tis pic~ MUACKSSS

love yp love eileen.

i always make pig face V^(oo)^V

love my gf. (: MUACKY MUACK MUACK.

love tis luhhh cos im slim here. :P
MORE TO COME~

PULAU UBIN.

group photo: lewei,zhisheng,nelson,jiexiong,edmund.
front: eileen,peiyee,yingping.

yp,edm,me,eileen&lewei.

us agn~ we're sitting at a rock near e sea.

yingping snapped tis.

im walking!

lols. top is my eye~

more photos wit yingping,

upload whn she send me.

ytd so fun yea. bt so tired.

woke at 8am,called edm&eileen t wake up.

e nite before im soso excited nd cant slp lur.

den met at 10am. stupig lewei they all were late.

went changi village eat breakfast.

den took ferry t pulau ubin.

went t rent bicycle. i cant cycle so edmund ride me.

even i never cycle much bt im so tired lur.

we kip cycling nd smoking at e same tym.

den cycled t villager hse,e uncle&auntie gt wild boar.

all so interested in us. e uncle use papaya leaves as tobacco.

den rested there for almost an hour continue cycling t a tower.

its like 7 floors. climb till so tired. it vry windy nd we all camwhored alot there.
den after tht went t a long trail nd walked we saw snakes! eileen&i still fooling ard.

we ran passed e snake sia. den i suddenly hear lewei say snake den i scream!

cos i saw e snake. EEEWWWW. KNS.

ate dinner at e restaurant den took ferry back.
shared rice wit edm,nt nice sia. we two ppl share also cant eat finish.

den play fireworks at jetty. play finish liao,lewei kip scared me.

i kip scream scream scream im so scaredddd.

den ferry back t changi. i low batt liao.

cabbed back to 883 i slp frm changi to 883.

i sleep thru out sia. nd they all cant wake me up i tink,

tht why edm had to carry me up to 883 lanshop.

so ps. thanks nd sorry yea. kok is nw talking t me.

he say im sot ytd. i slp at kopitiam nd drink redbull at e smae tym,

den e whole drink pour at my face-.- omg i so stupig.

nd i thot kok's beer was my redbull i mix both-.=

nd drink. i vomitted after tht. thts why lar..

went home ard 10plus. thanks yp*eileen they sent me home..

nd today i gt fever sia. NB. im so sick!

woke up wit fever of 38.9degree. tink gna burn my head till i gt damage liao.

im sweatinggg till im soaked. hais.

yping just called nd told me smth.......

im stupid trly stupid stupid stupid stupid.

eileen&lewei also dunnu hw t help me liao.

hais. PEIYEE IS STUPID TO THE EXTREME.

just in case you're reading tis,

i want you to knw i still care.

i dunt wna lose a friend like you.

i will try i will try i will try...

im sorry for wht i've said.

contradicting right?

i say dunt be good to me,

yet i cant bear it if you're nt good to me.

couldnt bear t ignore you. bt tis tym i knw wht i gt t do.

tis tym i rly hve t ignore you. if nt im being more cruel t you. ):

IM SORRY FOR WHT I SAID ND DONE.

IM THANKFUL T YOU TRIT ME GOOD ALL TIS.

dunt let tis be e lats tym. ):

SICK.

back frm pulau ubin,
nw im sick! FEVER KILLING ME.
i feel like im in an oven. post ltr uh~

pls,any kindsouls take me go see doctor?
my parenst dunt care abt me. T.T

EGGGCIIITTTYYYYYYY~

OMGXZXZX.
im so eggcity i cant slp!
tml gg pulau ubin nd gna hve funnnnnnnnnnn~
eheheh. we gna snap peakturess like deres no tml~
right,yingping&eileen?! HAHA.
girls always gt e priviledge t camwhore anywhr at anytym!
lol. pls wake up on tym tml okieokieokie?
great mood!

i♥:
rainbows!

cant look back

FUCKING PISSED!
lil girl why cant you see thgs clearly?
LOOK WHT HE'S DONE?!
its clear he's going on lust nt love.
you wna get fucked nd
get cheapened before you see e truth?
wtf sia. cant stand it.. =.=
you've gt a beautiful face,
dunt let him ruin your innocence.
look at wht he has done t e other girls.
taken away e innocence nd replaced wit evil,nd many motives.
dunt let him cheapen you.
you'll see thgs clearly soon.
i've said wht i gotta say,
wht in e future holds is up t you..
girls tis days are gettin' rly dumb.
seeing too much of tis shit. im sick nd tired.
why does it brk my hart so t see tis?
lil girl,you want a million tears t complete your life?..
HAIS DUMB.

fading away.
thgs you left behind been haunting me.
nth i could do,except let e tears flow........

I CAN TAKE TIS NO MORE♡

KOKHOE ASK ME DO DER~ lols.


1. At what age do you wish to get married?
idk leis~ last tym wna get married at 21!
bt nw no bf leis. who wna intro me sia? HAAH

2. Who is more important to you. Friends or girlfriend?
uhhh? depends if e bf is worth it.

3. Who is the person you trust the most?
i trust myself e most.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
nt rly..

5. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
everythg go back t e beginning or pls make thgs get btr for me.
everythg is so fuck up. i want bbbbbbbbbbb ):

6.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
no.

7. What is your goal for this year?
be promoted frm sec3, gt alotttt $$ & be happy..

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
no lahhhhhhhhh. obviously =X

9. Have you broken someone heart that she/he tried to commit suicide?
dunt hve leis.

10. What feeling do you love most?
love~

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
of cos e feeling must be ryte. must dote&love me!

12. What feeling do you hate the most?
loneliness,being bullied,hartbroken?

13. Do you believe in GOD?
nt rly?..

14. What do you think is the most important thing in in your life?
cash~
cigs~
MYSELF^^

15. Who cares for you the most?
hw do i knw

16. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
kokhoe?
he nd me nw argue in his tagboard. he tell lie sia!!

17. What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
regret lose alrdy den start t cherish. regret i trust e wrg ppl.

18. Why do people hate me?
hw i knw dem? jealousy ars?
KNS><>

MY MOOOOD VRY VRY BAD~

sat dwn wit a big tub of ice cream and bags of chips.
eat eat eat non-stop~ kns><>I WANT T TALK T YOU SO BADLY.
T___T
why you cant hear wht i gt t say?

为什么脆弱时候想你更多？

❧现在剩一个人坚强

my whole world feels so crushed.
i can barely stand e pain.
wht can i do to make myself feel better?

nt even a call,
does it mean tat you dunt care. =/

im missing everything in e past.
all lies all lies all lies all lies.
you e one who change py into tis pattern.
idk how t explain my feelings nw. ):
i read her blog,why i gt tis feeling tat,
tis tym is for real. even if she gt someone new,
wht does it mean?
why is a woman's six sense so accurate?
questioning myself who is she,
why i care so much. hais~
i rly dunnu. i dunnu wht wrg wit girls nw.
可以愛的人那麼多
你為什麼非要我這一個?
女人何苦为难女人?
我们一样有最脆弱的灵魂...
世界男子已经太会伤人
你怎么忍心再给我伤痕?
your innocence idk hw t say.

wht does it takes to reach out to you?
♥its hurting too much inside.

♧sienxzxzxzxzxz!

☑good girl
☒study
☐pass exams

SCREAMS~
walao. i cannot concentrate.
ytd nite i gt a vry good dream,
i dream tat i killed a stranger.

e scene is totally bloody.

like blood liver intestine all over e place.

after i wake i cry sia. bt tink of it i nt rly scared nors.

drive a pin into somebody hart.

dig out your hart t see whts inside laaaa.
nd in my dream i was like crazy nd vry violent.
ahaha. so scary if you all see me like tis.
im satanic~ LAUGHS
✡

joking~~~

you said you're in love wit me.

bt wht is it tat you rly wan

all e same.

so tis is hw it feels..

we are so alike.
we gone thru all e same thgs,
nd despite hiding behind e mask,
my dear girl could sense my unhappiness.
IN TIS FUCKING PLACE WHR I DUNT BELONG.
tis is nt a home,tis is just a house.

you dunnu hw much it cuts me inside,
so pain,so hurt. i wish i can kill all of you. _l_
all e tym ive gt many urges t turn violent against everyone,
bt all e tym e one i hurt is myself.
hw much longer can i tolerate tis?
im brking dwn.
fuck you. beeee


bloodsheds dunt scare me.

♡shatter

fuck lar _l_
thought i could trust
yet all tis endless&endless of idk wht is wht i get.
im rly tired~
maybe wht others say abt me is true luhs.
i've gt nth t say. just... say all you like abt me.
im no robot.
STAB ME IN E HEART OR WHT SUIT YOURSELF,
JUST DUNT STAB ME IN E BACK.
i feel e stab in my hart.

today edm&eileen fetch me frm sch.
so nice of them pls. loves~
nd went get cigs. den at 883 slack.
eileen is e one who knw me in&out lar~

whn my hart is hurting,she is e one who stay by my side.
I L♥VE HER SUPER LOTS LAR!!!
edm just sit dere listen..
lol. den went lanshop slack. SIENXZX.
stupig ronnie vry vry lame bodoh.
he close e door whn i gg in den i bang tio head!
ARGHGHGHGHGH~ pain*
den all laughing at me sia. so ps~
den jimmy ask me hide under table. =.=
ziyun kip kena kajiao by me,
cos i kip calla calla cutta him :D
reach home ard 7. and here i am blogging...
im so tired recently rly.......


这种游戏，
我玩不起。