Broken strings.

miss you but i know we have to part.
hope the 18th would be fun.
closing shop alone killed me today.

):

lucky weiliang ride me home by bike....
thanks silly for cheering me up. :D

shag

guess my weight? i've shed off the kg(s)

i know what im doing is not good for my health.

but i know what im doing im very clear.

check out my FB for albums!

but i'll update vry soon.

Suffer.

i tell myself to bear with it
yet i cant do it anymore.
can i just give up ?
can i not hide behind this facade anymore.
this was never what i wanted.

1) obsession
too much of a challenge to me,
thats what im looking for.

2) bottomless pit
stuck on the same old place.
the hurt is eating me up inside.

nobody knows how i feel,
only i know. yes,only me.

addicted to BQ

meimei,me & agatha gossip about u,
but u dont know :p
ytd dont know why got myself drinking at BQ again.
i think i must be crazy to drink all the time.
anw,i highlighted my hair & also trim it. now so short!!!! ):

see u ppl ard on friday!
go boatquay find me pls. :D

First kiss.

kiss me gently on my forehead like it was the first time,
dont worry i will pretend im asleep.
♥

Cherish?

today worked alone at Aljunied,
was a quiet place and quite hot there.
not much human flow neither,
sat down at stairway smoking and i really miss him alot.
but i know what i did is right, if there is no future
we should not stay together.
why is it that no matter how hard we try,we see no future?
is it we or is it just me who see no future?
we've been together such a long time,
it made me very upset even to think of removing our photos.
no matter what i do, i will always remember you.
its not because i dont love you so im leaving you,
im leaving you bcos i know i've changed and cant fit into your expectations anymore.
dont deny the fact.. we know it deep down.
im sorry for everything i've done wrong past years and i wish you all the best.
in my heart there will always be a place for you.
please dont be upset for losing me, it was my fault.
i hope that you & your family will be happy always,
also maybe in the future we may find that we need each other afterall?
and get back together? i dont rule out the possibilities
but bi,i really did love you very very much with all of my heart in the past years.
one last heart for you ♥

♥ and i wish to see you in my life in the future again,
i know somehow fate will bring us together again. (:
lets wait & see?

LAYRTEBA

ewohs mras od i eli ta ghnit?

Apolegetic.

Dear Teo,

im sorry i didnt know what you went through,and wasnt there.

but i promise you im a phone call away,

no matter how busy i am at work,

i'll make time for you. for the meanwhile,

keep urself strong ok. dont keep ur tears to urself.

i miss you♥

nostalgia..

2am,im home.
suddenly i miss you so much
miss your stupid face,stupid jokes,everything about you....

i kept thinking of me neglecting you for the past few weeks or has it been months?
things hasnt been going well for us exactly, i've been short tempered,
easily irritated and too busy with work to care for you.
thus,communication between us often ends up in quarrels.
i know it aint easy for you,but trust me i feel the same way you do.
now i can only hope that things will get better for us.

i keep crying when i thought of how we allow this issue to break us apart.
i believe we can overcome this rough patch together..
now i can only look forward to Genting trip with you,weiliang,weijie & jianwei.
17 nov,you will be taking me to Kittylab right? i wish it will come fast.
i am too tired too exhausted to think anymore,lets just forget it
and stop quarrelling,our love is much stronger than any of this obstacles.
i am sorry if what i wrote has upset you,
but i hope you do feel equally sorry for invading my privacy.
i hope you can just give me trust and support for now.

i love you.

PS: will update on photos & daily life soon,stay tuned.

Berrysecretive.

Not fucking secretive anymore.
sucks to know that i've not even a space to breath
nor do i have something i can choose to keep to myself.
why the fucking hell do you have to be so possesive?
its not like im going to leave you anyday.
it wont hurt to let me keep a secret.

Don 't tie me down.
I HATE IT.


ps: work/drinking@boatquay/late nights/dark rings.
dont add on to my list. I DONT NEED IT.

Drained.

I am so tired due to work.
but i'll like to salute myself for the endurance,
despite my partying,late nights,boat quay drinking nights,
i made it. :D

currently im working for NETS, selling flashpaycards.
tiring i swear,when i do meet unreasonable customer....
i feel so drained and so detached from the rest of the world.
LOL,abit exaggerating lah. i work at raffles place
and that place is seriously where you find all the busiest ppl in sg.
but at night when i end work,i'll sit opp chevron tower puffing on my ciggies,
and enjoy the scenery. altho being a busy place its also such a pretty place. haha.
i love my manager & supervisor,i feel that i've learnt alot from them :D
haha. i think i today very serious in this post,mcm act like one pro LOL.
ok la i have to go remove my makeup and head to lala land soon,
have to wake up at 7am tmr!!!!!!!!v RAWRRRR.


i see two sides to everything and its scaring me crazy...
i wish it would stop. PY IS A SINNER.

Play a lovegame,

clubbed on sunday,
danced till morning,
stayed over @ hougang,
straight to work @ raffles place,
very very tired i swear..
homeclub sucks ytd, but me was high so it doesnt matter.
i danced like crazy anyway with my girls.
should have gone to Moon btw.
anyways, thanks to all my girls who took care of me ytd.

somethings i have to say,
1) i'll be game to play but i have my limits.
2) i know i was a letdown.. im sorry.....

PS: I play with fire. I'll bear the consequences.

Urge.

too many issues to deal with.
too many doubts circling in my head.
i am totally clueless,where do i go after this path?
why does this feeling come and go as it likes.
cant help it but i feel so alone when dealt with issues like this.
please i pray for enlightenment from above,
im dying to know what i should do.
i dont want to live my live with regrets anymore.


once in a lifetime.

MOO~

Aint no sunny yellow banana day,
but its a fucking grey grey going-to-rain day......

this stupid post would be filled with random and lame pictures.
hate me then shoo ok? hahaha.
so bored...................... ):


Kittylicious~

very bored so i decided to take pictures of them.

when in the bag, those smaller sizes kitty.

tada! not my complete collection
but these are the ones that are very well taken care of,
being kept in plastic bags,sprayed with perfume,white and spotless..
very cute i know, you want it,i know.. neh neh ni boo boo~


Boliao,

guess which asshole draw tis pikachu lookalike thing?
ock-.- he's too bored i guess.

guess who is this two idiot kena taken ic photo by me?
suay sia, hahahha. see qibin on e left, cheng junjie on e right.





Nephew & bro,


dont you feel like pinching their adorable cheeks? :D

yayaya thats all,
stupid rain made me cancel my plans of meeting vivian...
after exam just now,wenjie & vivian came over my house,
i helped wenjie dye hair till very very handsome^^
my hair colour not very pleasing to my eye leh..
last dec one nicer ): very sad. hope after subsequent washing it'll turn out nice.
vivian one damn ah lian,then she dyed another layer tone down th lianish colour.
feel like doing my nails asap but im so lazy to go down to chinatown. sien-,-
should i work for V&M or should i continue working at Colourcode?
ARGH,dont ponder so much anymore,shall hug kitty and head to puroland tgt.
bye~

PS: Mr Ong is a real sweetheart. me love you~ ♥

Freedom finally!

FINALLY!!!!!!
tmr i'll be free to make a nail appointment to do gel extentions,
i want pretty pretty girly nails!!
cant stand school,dont understand why we cant have pretty long nails!
either i will do pink or silver glitter gradient or some cute hellokitty & ribbon design!
i can finally dye my hair! YAY!!!
i cant stand my hair with bottom being brown and the roots all black >;(
hahaha. shall entertain you guys with some pictures!


going to Rebel. think i look old?
take a look at your mother.

messy dressing table,not mine haha.

random picture in MRT.

Friday's pictures.

hubby's wearing the hellokitty shirt i bought for him (:

sunplaza's kfc waiting for Mr Aw,Mr Tan and hubby eat.

Stephen's cap. gift from gf de siol!

LASTLY,

not to disapppoint our dear Ah Long who wants attention badly...

get the attention you want liao lor, si pui long,

today bomb Bi and i eat prata ): ): ):

bye!

almost legal.

happy birthday stephen!
and early birthday to jianwei! (20/10)

so,ytd celebrate this two oct babies b'day,
not so much fun bcos theres no singing and we left pretty early.
we finished our martell and our beer very fast and left the pub at 12.30.
ate mac,talked cock and slack awhile then cabbed home.
reached home at about 1.30am. still early but was dead beat.
pictures all with weiliang, im very sure he wont send me.
must wait for us to meet then got chance!!!
anyway ytd found out embarassing things about our dear Mr Aw. hahahah!!
and what a pleasant surprise i saw when i checked my mail today,winks to weiliang*

PISSED
1) wtf, pls dont take my ugly photo and post in your profile.
same goes for vivian's , we fucking hate it!!! _l_
2) fuck you lah,wash your mouth ok. nabeh.
3) stupid neighbour,i hope you kena bang by car lah,
you've disrupted my sleep for like 3 days in a row.
when the fuck will you ever finish drilling your fucking wall? _l_
and your fucking dalmatian dog,ask him stop making noise la.
fucking noisy bodoh._l_

bye.

love.

i love pink and bling! :D


ever wondered what a little tube of glue & crystals could do?

(tis is e exact glue im using btw)

prettypretty blings on my cell that even marie cant resist!

hahahah,im so happy with e outcome.

will do hellokitty head when im feeling patient. haha.

im very hungry now sia..... later gg t call for macdelivery.

tmr must wake up early for N lvl math paper.

im gg to watch a lil tv ,order mac,

eat macdelivery and go to bed soon^^

goodnite~~~

i ♥ Hellokitty

MEOWWWWWWWWWWW~

surfing e net for e item i want (:
didnt find e desired item i want...
instead i found other things....
i feel like blinging my hp now now now!!!
hahahh. but my crystals not enough,
im gg t buy crystals tmr at pearl centre!!! weee~~

will bling a big hellokitty head

hope it wud be easy(:

i want tis but i dont have paypal.

and its a lil too pricey
hahahahah. i have to hop into bed now.
tmr have to wake bfore 12..
goodnite kittens~


lastly,pls sign this petition.

animals feel the same pain humans can feel!!! >;C
https://secure.peta.org/site/Advocacy?cmd=display&page=UserAction&id=1810&c=kfcsuba1009&s_src=padba

ps: sinful online shopping,.. sanrio so tempting.

hundred over bucks flew away in 20minutes...

Arrogance?

Im home from work!! ,done with my shower and removing of makeups,
so i'll post something from my draft i've written tis morning..
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Today, i woke up earlier than usual to prepare for work...
after my shower,choosing of clothes,make ups,etc
i still got spare time! so guess what!
very obvious right? camwhore!!!


today mood very good ar, stick on eyelashes somemore..
everytime even lazy to blend eyeshadow properly.. hahah.

pink walls so girly.

my long-neglected kitty,

so sorry mummy always go out leave you alone at home,

at nite when go home sometimes kick you out of bed ):
but i still love you muack<3

tonite i will hug you to sleep ^^

not emo. very loved and doted on. hahahah.

unlike you !!!! :x

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today fucking mooncake festival,

i haolian dont want take out my hellokitty mooncake show you all.

hahahah. ok la,very boliao.

work today so slack, really no sales today );

bii make my psp modify run,then we rush rush close shop at 9,

then again rush down to amk hub buy my top.

went to fatty's shop to get my psp done,then head to eat,

done with eating then went home by train,

in e train there's tis man whose prolly retarded? =Z

wishing me and bii, happy latern festival

then calling me snow white and bii prince. -.-

lucky he got down at the next stop-.- siao

bii wants to kill me now bcos im still not in bed.

and today i spent quite alot,i've promised to save );

but i cant do it ehh. someone help me pls?

grrr.... offf to bed now!!! tmr will be a long long day............!!!

PS: my favorite loot today is a pair of wedges!!!

i feel comparable to Ock now!!! ><

*not mine. mine's black ans similar to this.

love the height btw! hees! (:

dead.

give me life pls.

my n's are coming soon in like 3 days,

yet i cant find my concentration at all.

met qibin to study at sunplaza ytd,

i had only enough concentration to last thru 6 qns-.-

yes,that is how much of a failure i am.

and today im so lazy to get my ass up from bed,

i have been lying in bed since 1pm when i woke up,

its 3.05pm now,try beat that? -.-

i predict that i wont move my ass for another few hours,

till daddy nags at me to go pompom. so tired lur..

decided to close my eyebrow piercing, sick of it.

should i call for mac delivery?? hungryyy.....

i have t wrk tmr.. then after wrk chiong down amk get my 2 tops.

year end going bangkok. weeeee~

mus thank my daddy for making my life so comfy..

tv,psp,playstation,aircon controller,... all within my reach.

back to nua on my bed,on e phone wit vian now..

i am going to nua again..

bye!!!